Son, although tomorrow is your birthday, my heart will shamelessly celebrate the gift you have been to me.
Yes, we will all celebrate, perhaps with your favorite steak. Candles will be lit, we will sing to you and wait with anticipation as you blow out your 14 candles.
Yet, all the while a warm rush will fill my chest. I will do my best to remember your face, your voice and your eyes in these moments. My heart knows all to well that time passes carelessly. I must steal the moments and make them mine.
In the glow of the candles, I will linger at the vibrant kaleidoscope of memories, not knowing where my love ends and your life begins.
I will remember the wide eyes of the toddler that looked to me for courage. In your face, I will see traces of the tenacious young boy who would not give up. I will strain to hear in your voice remnants of the baby who once called for me. As you walk, my heart will tease me; you refused to crawl face down, sitting upright and gliding across the floor with a foot extended to propel you.
I will search for traces of the chubby hands that once reached for mine. And, when I hug you…my heart will remind me of the peaceful nights I cradled you for hours. I never felt so alive (or sleep deprived).
Yes, on your birthday, we will sing and celebrate while my heart faithfully unwraps once again the gift that is you.