If the prevailing message you received as a child was that you were “not enough”, it changes you. This can play out in so many ways that it is almost a part of the human condition.
Not Enough…Not Worthy of LOVE.
You may spend the rest of your life trying to prove that you are. Never fully accepting, that indeed …
You are enough just as you are. You are worthy. You are WHOLE regardless of your circumstances.
You search outside of yourself to fill this void. You gain glimpses of the potential of your worth when you help reaffirm or when you recognize it in others. Much of your energy could remain here because at least it is within your reach.
And when you fall short in any area of your life whether it be as a partner, a professional, a friend or a parent, you experience a reaffirmation that you are indeed…not enough.
You live with this insidious and self- imposed shame.
Sometimes to quell this inner struggle, you accept defeat. You really are just subpar. Just live there.
But then you wake up with the hope that today, even just for the day, you just may be enough. You evaluate everything you encounter through this lens consciously and unconsciously.
It clouds everything.
You may feel as I do that it is time to let the light in. If so, I am with you.